Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change. Of his own will he brought us forth by the word of truth… (Jam. 1:17-18)
I’ve been really busy lately with finals and all the craziness that comes at the end of the quarter, but I felt like I needed to quickly write this down before I go to bed. I’ve been really blown away by God’s goodness in the last few days. I have an awesome church that is totally dedicated to proclaiming good news and seeing the dead raised into new life. I have an awesome group of godly men in that church who all want to work together and encourage one another to become servants of Jesus, totally dedicated to Him and the calling that He has given to us to be leaders in the Church and our families. I have awesome friends who love me so much and want to see me grow and experience flourishing and healing. I have a God Who loves me enough to send His Son to die for me. I have a God Who was willing to take humanity upon Himself in order to live the life I couldn’t live and die the death I deserved to die so that I could experience reconciliation with the Father. I have a God Who was sent as a seal of the salvation I have received, to empower me to become like Christ, to counsel me in all things, and to sanctify me–that God Himself lives within me and my body has become a living temple for the Creator of all that is seen and unseen.
I’m just in awe of the amazing gifts that God has given to me. And while things can even be completely messed up in my life–the fear of finals, the fear of not doing well, the stress of planning for what’s coming next, the strain of relationships, etc.–I can’t help but feel real, significant joy in the fact that I am saved by an undeserved grace and have been given the righteousness of Christ when I myself am completely unworthy.
We sang the song Before the Throne of God Above today at Church and one of the lines says this:
When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end to all my sin
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free
For God the just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me
As the world around me seeks to earn their worth by their own power, proclaiming themselves to be self-sufficient, I have been given the wonderful grace of realizing that my worth does not come from me. I look up and see that there is One far greater than me Who satisfied every requirement I could not bear on my own, and that the Father of lights looks upon Him and releases me from my sin. I have One who ever lives and pleads for me, and it is by His perfection I am saved.
I’m free. Truly free. Completely free. Utterly free. Healed. Redeemed. Saved. Created anew. Unstoppable. Holy, yet being sanctified. The God Who gives every good and perfect gift has adopted me into His family. By the blood of His Son I have been transferred from darkness and into light. What a beautiful truth!
To whom else shall I go? To what could I turn for all that I have been given in Christ? There’s nothing else that could possibly compare. I am truly blessed. I couldn’t imagine my life any better than it is in this moment because I see the goodness of my God and He is all that I need.